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2011-04-22T06:31:00.000-07:00

busy day. cause it's good friday.

mum invited lots of people to our place.

kind of hate that. had to walk around and talk.

and they always asked they same stuffs ._. fts.

dad called the catering service. the food was, wow.

amazing. got to know a few teenagers.

i better get off the com soon. have to clear up the room before mum comes in :z

i swear i still miss you.

2011-04-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

omg, i just bought hell lot of stuffs today :/

though the one paying was dad. LOL.

come on, i'm the only kid he can pamper.

boasted about it to yt, only to get sarcasm from her.

jealous !! mum took my phone halfway through our conversation.

and asked her to come over soon.

somebody's so busy ._.

monday's coming soon ~

i havent studied for my test.

better go now.

everyone says people change.

maybe some did.

but most of them just didn't do what you expected them to.

and yea, i can't believe you gave up friendship for this.

it's so not like you, babe :x

2011-03-25T08:00:00.001-07:00

school work is start to pile up. ggfied.

guess, i'll spend the night doing them.

going out with mum tomorrow :D

which means, it's shopping time, plus food ~

omgomg. i miss going out with her. many ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

dad's overseas again.

going talk to him on webcam later.

i want souvenir ! LOLOLOL.

i miss you, and i hate it.

2011-03-21T21:04:00.000-07:00

seems like i'm doing the same thing as yt :o

no wait, i am.

i'm just bored. didn't went to school today.

it's so tiring. geez, i feel like i could faint anytime.

met up on the 20th. like wow, i realise i missed them all alot.

lunch over at vivocity, favourite hangout place. LOL.

went over to sentosa after yt left for work.

awww, such a waste.

anyway, mum was mentioning how much she missed my clique as well.

especially, you :/

so maybe, our next gathering can be at my place ?

hmmm, still planning.

meeting samuel after he ends school.

it's gay time ! ( not in that way ) -.-

2011-02-11T02:37:00.000-08:00

well, school have been awesome.

got into the same school as Samuel, as well as a few of my schoolmates.

cny is going to end. wow.

that's really fast. the surprise visit from clique was best.

i thought they wasn't going to come :/

well, i love them.

i'm glad we're okay again (:

though you're still cold towards me.

maybe my r/s should have ended earlier.

i mean, they were right.

HM was controlling my life too much ==

i just refused to accept the fact.

sorry for saying all those harsh words people.

2011-01-03T07:57:00.000-08:00

to my loveliest YENTENG:

I'm so sorry that I hurt you
sorry that I fell through
sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that I came true
but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it alright
so sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
sorry that I held you tight
and I'm sorry for making you love me and saying goodbye
for being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
for giving you every thing that you dreamed
for taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love for wasting your time

an apology now after all of this time
won't make any difference tonight
but I'm hoping I'm sorry will open your mind
to love love love in your life.

i'm really sorry girl.

i know you'll never forgive me for doing such ass shit things.

and i know my gf will see this. but i really cherish the friendship still.

hope you know how important you still are to me.

live well, all the best. and find a better guy..

to my dearest clique:

sorry people, i know i've made all off you pissed off.

i still hope we can go out together as a group.

plus i know i've changed. i can feel it.

and you guys were cold towards me.

i won't blame anyone. i know it's my fault.

but still thanks for being there and helping me.

hope everyone is well.

to my schoolmates/ sail mates:

happy new year, see you all when we go back to school for our results.

i pray for all of you to get the best results.

thanks for being there for me.

especially samuel, my awesome gay partner.

totally understanding and helpful, knows when i need time.

finally updated after so long. no one bothers to read as well, i guess :/

2009-08-19T01:46:00.000-07:00

waiting for you

金色的舞鞋伴着音乐
baby你的眼睛是一弯深邃的湖水
哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我晕眩在悬崖边
谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you i''m waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you i''m waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线
waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远
哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you i''m waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you
waiting for you waiting for you waiting for you
waiting for you i''m waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you i''m waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线
waiting for you waiting for you waiting for you

i love tis song luhh :D
nw outside studyin wif yt.
mum's gng to kill me if sh found out whr i was ==
sh hates me gng to the armenian church,
cos sh said its for puritans. and i wasnt one. LOL.
bt i lyk it thr. kindof peace.
and we found out tt agnes joaquim was buried thr.
haa. anw, yt wanted to use the com bt i refused. rofl.
its for her own gd luhh. u'll b grateful to me :D
study 1st. exam finish i let u play al u wan. kay?
nth wil go wrong if u listen to me,
since whn i 害 you? LMAO.
back to the topic,
i din go for cca 2day.
coach din ask for the reason,
bt bein a responsible kid,
i told hm i wasnt feelin well :X
hmm, well. part of me wasnt well.
though im okay nw (:
tts all i guess. nth much to say.

2009-07-24T20:17:00.001-07:00

okay. im wide awake nw :D
while tt slpy gurl is stil slpin in her rm.
dun dare go wak her up,
ltr kena karate-chop x.x LOL.
anw, sh's exhausted. haha.
kip her up too late ytd ==
i've no idea wt to do.
so here i am (: LMAO.
gng out ltr wif her parents, i guess.
btw, her sis is damn cute lar.
quite naive oso, blieve wtever i told her.
bt thr's one ting sh din blieved.
tt is whn i said im her sis bf.
she: i dont blieve u. my sis so guai. no bf de.
me: im oso v guai wt.
she: no. u look bad to me.
me: appearance always giv wrong impression. *smirks*
she: *blurblur*
me: i look so handsome bt i v guai de.
she: -.-"'
me: ur one tough nut to crack.
she: im nt nuts lar. nt even a squirrel. me = human.
me. ROFLMAO!

seriously, i laughed lyk sme mad kid until aunty came out.
thn aunty ask me eat waffle. LOL.
understand her meaning. (im too noisy)
at nite tok to yt :D
told her the conver btwn me n her sis.
thn sh started laughin oso and said me thick-skin x.x
bt aft awhile sh tired until lie on my bed and tok.
HAHA. sh soon fell aslp (expected)

its getting too long.
and sh jus wakup ._.
finally. heee.

2009-07-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

RAWR!! im stoning for the past few mins ==
and sh's stil hogging onto the com.
i cnt blieve it's mre attractive than me. LOL.
anw, quite a fun day.
bt instinct told me sh's falling sick soon.
hope it isnt true :D
haha. tml having cca.
so looking forward to it. HAA.
im sure to get nagged by samuel, rite?
he missed me too much (:
i din go sch 2day cos i feel lyk slpin in.
wrong decision x.x
had to hlp mum wif the hsework.
i so hate thm. its supposes to be the ladies job.
and im suppose to laze ard.
bt no, mum had other ideas apart frm tt.
said tt it would be a wastage if sh din use me. LOL.
i'll try to update mre. HEE.
shld stop nw. we're finally get out of my hse :D

tis few days are the best of the memories.
i'll rmb al the tings we shared :D
i'll be rite here whr u nid me. HAA.

2009-07-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

he gave her 12 roses.
11 real and 1 fake rose.
and said, " i'll love u till the last rose dies. "

omfg! so touching luh.
i shld hav thot of tis man ==
whoever tis person is, guess he/she is damn romantic.
LOL. showed tis to the both madgurl & guy.
amazingly and magically, they stopped laughing their asses out.
and tis gurl daydreamed tt geum jan di wil do tt -.-
wtf manzx, it shld b a guy tellin u tt lar.
oh pls. sth wrong wif the wire connection in ur brain.
cousinkins oso hv tis kind of mentality.
he wants kim bum to say tt to hm.
wt's the world cmin to? thr's weirdos evrywhr.
hmm, mayb nt. im jus unlucky tt i hav both bside me x.x
side by side smemre. life's 'gr8'. LMAO.
ohwell, guess tis craze over BOF isnt stoppin yet.
cuz the guys are so suave tt gals go gaga over thm.
bt pls rmb the fact tt, we're in s'pore.
and we dun hav tis kind of famous actors here.
they're havin a gd life in their country,
wheras we, ppl, oni had the chance to dream abt thm.
anw, nid to cut short abit. yt fighting over the com wif me x.x
sh's the oni one without a laptop. LOL.
bt nvm, i shld b a gentleman, let her use.
riterite? yea. tts rite.
and my email inbox are flooded by those two.
al those craps they sent. holyshit :D

gtg. bye all :D
samuel, i noe ur reading tis.
wahaha. jealous rite?
who ask u nt free. busy guy arr.

2009-07-13T06:28:00.000-07:00

okay. currently at lib wif yt :D
sh's so damn noisy luhh.
LOL. whn sh sees tis, sh'll mak even mre noise.
wich will cause us to get chased out again.
cnt blame her. sh's too hyperactive ==
bt under tis strong front, i noe sh's feelin rotten.
rite rite? dun tink i duno (:
its lyk 3yrs since we noe each other,
u cnt possibly kip anyting frm me. HAA.
jus ate supper. yumyum *slurps*
tempting her wif my cheese fries.
bt sh din even tak one look at it -.-
rofl. guess we will b out till quite late.
lyk duh, sh doesnt wan to go hme.
and im nt gng to sch tml, jus incase sh isnt okay.
LOL. big sacrifice leh. ur lucky tt my mum understands.
no worries, sh wun say anyting to ur mum. HEE.
i've sealed her mouth. LMAO.

anw, lib closing le.
nid go find other place to slack ==
mafan leh, bt its okay :D
tata.

2009-06-30T06:33:00.003-07:00

fucking stress ==
hwk piling lyk mt everest.
i jus hope sb gt tt stupid goddamn h1n1.
ever since the day we went back to sch,
tchers been throwin work to us.
thick stacks in fact..
i noe im wonderboy lar, bt u tink i cn do tt?
LOL. lucky gt samuel wif me.
the jokes we made were damn hilarious :D
mayb gng mia? idk. depends on my mood.

ABCDEFG.
corny luh.
omfg, its a wonder hw yt thot abt tis.

supergal is strong, i blieve.
whn ur lost, rmb i wil guide ur way (:

2009-06-17T18:35:00.000-07:00

140609

BIRTHDAY! LOL.
had a totaly fun day wif clique, jarrod n yenteng :D
cousinkins arrived wif yenteng, cus he went to pick her up.
(actualy i told hm to. muhahaha).
its too far for her to walk in, dun wan her reach thn slp again x.x
(sh did tt lastime -.-)
okay, thn ppl start cming.
played water bomb, evryone aim me. GRR.
bt i told thm to change target, LOL.
bd boy biggest :D thn jar kena.
altogether, evryone was dripping wet.
went to change, n yt kept sneezing away.
oops, rush her to go change n my mum nag.
say why i din takecare of her. LMAO.
(see! my mum loves u mre than me. hmpf)
aftt went to shop ard :D
bought NUM tank wif clique. haha.
and sth for yt, bet u love it rite?
went back for dinner, cut cake ritual ==
slack ard, thn jar told me yt's missing. LOL.
so observant leh. lucky i noe whr sh is (:
many tings happen, no elabration.
thn its time for thm to go hme x.x
(i seriously regret letting her go.)
mum drove her hme, cos its real late.
and sh stayed so damn far frm me.haha.
mus hav badmouth me rite? i noe one uhh :D
okay, tts all i guess. hee.

no matter wt, im stil willing to wait.
my clique always ask me why im waiting aft so long,
i told thm it was worth it. u'r worth the wait.
during my bd, they finaly realised why.
they said u'r fun-loving and practically could hav fun wif anyone.
always cheerful, smiling at thm :D :D
i realy realy love u alot gal.
and i noe u do too. riteos?

2009-06-04T06:05:00.000-07:00

well, nth much happening i guess.
unless u consider my rm's tv went 'kaboom' as sme big news.
LOL. i was waching the show whn it gave sme weird noises,
tinkin it was probably sme music effect, i ignored it :O
i noe im dumb :D so i continued wachin until it 'bomb' infront of me,
and cut off the entire electrical circuit.
and my mum, well, she was in the toilet dng her mask whn it blackout.
thn sh went screaming away and my dad hav to go n calm her down.
he went to fix it and tts whn i gt into deep shit x.x
mum was groaning abt being observant n react to tings ard me.
bt i wasnt listening ;X
hehe. expected though, i hate changing myself.
im perfectly loving the way i am nw.
and well i wun change my targets :D
okay, back to story.
so, mum knew tt i wil die without a tv.
and thn sh brought me shopping for one.
well, it's GSS nw. most of the stuffs hav having slashing of prices.
so i gt a LCD tv for quite a cheap price :D
LOL. it's serendipitous and i love it.

its abit messy ==
cos im clearing my stuffs, as my mum ordered me to.
sh threaten wif nt letting me go sailing.
GRR, no choice bt to clear.

i wun stop loving u till i've chang emy mind.
wich i noe i wun.
cos u're the kind of gal tt i always wanted :D

2009-06-01T23:30:00.000-07:00

Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable. i♥u gal.

hols are finally here!!
okay,mayb nt so excited afterall ==
i've gt extra lessons, cca n darn lot of hwk.
dun tink the tchers understand the meaning of hols.
and im getting tanned :D
due to the fact tt im gng sailing evry wk.
ohgod, i love it manzxz.
wait till u see me jarrod, i bet u'll b gng gaga over me.
okay, tts exaggerating.LOL.
bt hope its true :D
cos i found out recently tt im gay (jk)
another great news,
my dearest precious yenteng cming to stay.
LOL.wt mre cn i hope for? hehe.
i fucking miss her luhh.
sry jarrod, i miss her mre than u do :D
and i blieve sh agree, don't u?

IM GNG T UNPRIVATE MY BLOG!
LMAO.isit a gd news??

2009-03-10T06:27:00.000-07:00

Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils x.x

it's true, till nw thn i blieved.
i've always thot tt my heart will heal over the time.
bt till nw, i missed her n loved her just as much.
it hurts jus by tinkin tt sh's wif a guy and it isn't me T.T
even though i've told her i'll b waiting, i noe tt we've no chance to be tgt anymre.
bt i don't wanna giv up, hoping and hoping a miracle will happen.
and sh'll be mine once again x.x
bt is it possible anymre?
once i blieved in it,bt nw i've lost faith in it.
this feeling is stucked within me, and it ain't gng away.
tried nt to tink bout it, bt images of us bein tgt came to me lyk the tsunami waves.
hitting me again n again.
sh's been so swt whn i've gt any troubles,
always thr as a listening ear n a pillar for support.
without her, my life is empty ;X

baby gal,i realy miss u alot x.x
i'll always be here for u,nv gng away.
u noe whr to reach me.
a fone call frm u and i'll rushed down whrever i am.

2009-01-02T05:57:00.000-08:00

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice calls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I really know
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it though every storm
What is life, whats the use if your killed inside
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

Baby,i realy love you gal.
i'm sure u're aware of it..
i'm gonna moved u again n again ;D

2008-11-27T18:26:00.000-08:00

laziness kills -.-
rm finished painting, nw left decorations.
mum bringing me go buy thm nxt wk.
argh! cnt u c tt e rm looks so empty?
i hav the tings i wan in my mind,bt i duno if they wil b costly.
and i seriously miss her ;D
well,i told her tt and sh just duno wt to say ;x
hope din frighten u uh.
hehe.cousinkins act busy sia.
kip dun wan reply me.oni reply yenteng -.-
u gd lor.pangseh me.
jk oni ar ;D i noe u super busy lar.
jus tt u reply her faster.
actualy was betting wif yenteng to c hu cousinkins reply 1st.
LMAO.i was the one losing all the time.
pathetic me T.T nw i owe her a buffet.
called her ytd during her brk.
v funi lor.sh was complaining abt her darn manager again.
u evil gal larhs.say hm until so bad ;D

2008-11-14T01:51:00.000-08:00

currently busy for tis few days,
nid pack rm n repaint it.
n gawd,it looks pretty bad whn its haf done T.T
im hopin for th beta wif sme decorative items ;D
im stil tryin to get over her ;(
anyone hlp me?
i noe sh's upset bt sme tings,
bt i simply duno hw to hlp.
bt dun worry i'll b thr as ur listenin ears no matter hw busy i am alrite?
be strong! n i noe u r ;D
pls rmb i'll b here for u.
i'll try my v best to put a bigbig smile on ur face ;D
iloveyou larhs, happi mah? LMAO.

n to those freakin frens of hers,
pls lar,ppl feelin down stil ask her smile.
mak her force herself for wt sia.
so tt u'll b hapi?
if tts the case dun u tink its selfish of u?
u nv thot of hw ual pangseh her.
n u r blamin her cos sh pangseh ual.
life is unfair i noe.
bt tis is much too worst.
sh looks as if sh's fine,
bt deep down,sh's controllin her feelings.
pressing thm down -.-
tis kind of ppl might as well dun hav.
i noe i shldnt say such tings cos i've oni heard one side of thm.
bt i seriously tink sh wun lie for such tings.

2008-10-23T05:54:00.000-07:00

woo 2day aft sch went hme change thn cab-ed down to cousinkins hse ;D
ohmygawd! i love auntie annabelle's cooking man.
super delicious.
lucky i chose to cme 2day for a stay-over ;D
yenteng came ltr in her uniform.
thn aft awhile nid go hme.
sad-ed sia.so long nv mitup n sh'd to leave so early.
imissheraftsheleft ;x
thn crap ard n started disturbin each other.
all sorta nonsense came up.
and we geta use auntie's xtra makup.
LMAO.we look exactly lyk clowns wif those thick blushers.
took photos bt jarrod forbids me to put thm up.
he's shy ;x ROFL
nw waiting for cousinkins thn cn cal yenteng for conference le.
sian.tml sh nid work thn cnt go out wif us.
i stil owe her stuffs sia.
jarrod oso.tml is payback time.
bt yenteng nt cmin so too bad le lar.hehe ;D

dun tire urself during work,kay?
smemre leg pain ar u.
mus takecares ;D

2008-10-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

went out wif yenteng last wk.
v fun luh.she cn realy mak my day ;D
bt sh's gng to b attached
damn.tts e prob i had ;x
okay.cut those craps.
went ard shoppin,tokin n eatin.
din go far,cuz sh nida go hme early.
sh made me promise to tc of myself.
n nt giv myself any mre stress than ever.
swt lar deyys :D
if oni sh's mine T.T
okay.i promise i will de.
dont worry bout me.hehe ;D

ps: dun get scared by tis post,my dear.
u'll stil b my sis.cuz i noe its impossible
btween us.

2008-10-15T01:53:00.000-07:00

im sick of sch.
i jus wanna stay hme evryday to slp.
i jus dun get why mus we go to sch whn we hav done our exams.
okayokay.i admit im scared of facing my results.
i dont wanna noe any of thm.
i promised my mum i'll work hard for her.
bt im sorta scared tt i'd disappoint her T.T
god help me!
oh pls jasper,wil u jus stfu n stop gng on n on abt hw ur scared of results -.-
baby,i nid u by my side to comfort me n tel me i'd score well.
mayb tt was my wishful tinkin.
bt i realy hope it would happen ;D
okay.enuff of tt stuffs.
im sick of my own grumbles.

2008-10-14T02:54:00.000-07:00

posting for 1st time yea?
bt im lazy.
hols cmin soon,im lookin forward to thm.
cuz cn slp till aftnn.LMAO.
i noe ima pig, dont nida tel me ==
mum wil b hell naggy whn i get my papers back.
i wan good grades ;D
and i wan my bloody damn fone back.
god damn miss it cn?LOL.

baby,jus giv me one last chance will you?
all i expect is tt one single chance ;(